Google+ Authentic Parenting: Return to Fertility, A Second Time Around

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Return to Fertility, A Second Time Around

After I gave birth to my daughter, I could hardly wait to have another child. It was extremely frustrating

to me to wait for my fertility to return. I was eager,  anxious, waiting and the dreamt of second child seemed so far away.
I got my period after 20 months (but suspect I wasn't ovulating at first) and my children are 3,5 years apart.

After giving birth to my son, my immediate reaction was quite different. No. I was not putting myself through this again. Time passed and at 19 months post partum, I had my period. What a shocker.

I knew it was coming, I felt it, but it feels so sudden.
My daughter's reaction when she knew I had my period (and that I am fertile again): "What? At his age? But he's just a baby."

My feelings exactly. I am NOT ready to have another child. I don't even know if I want more. Sure, I want to give birth again, be pregnant again, but do I want another CHILD? I can hardly handle these two... Most of the time just living makes my head spin. I am constantly grasping for breath, a moment to myself...
I constantly wonder if I'm even cut out to be a mom, because I feel like all I do is fail.

No, nature, you seem to have gotten it wrong this time.

When did you return to fertility after giving birth? Do you feel it was different with a second child?


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