Written by Carina Freeman
This month's posts by monthly fertility contributor Carina Freeman is a series of "Dear baby" letters. This is part two of two. Read the first Dear baby letter here.
I can't wait to meet you. I'm already the mother of a spirited fun-loving toddler who would make the greatest big brother. Your dad and I have been doing everything we can to help you arrive; eating right, exercising . . . your older brother is even trying to teach Mama Yoga. How exciting. I've started to buy you things. Cute hats, socks, and undershirts. Daddy is super excited and already wondering what we should call you. Maybe you'll be a twin. There's so much love in my heart . . . I could even handle triplets. I know that you'll come when the time is right and perhaps with a little help from a doctor. I know that you'll be the start of a much anticipated adventure. And worth any trouble or expense or medicine it takes to help you get here. I think of you every day. And wish for you on every falling star. And your family can't wait to meet you.
Dear Baby- By Elisha
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As I watch all my friends go on to have babies, firsts, seconds, thirds and fourths I can't help but shed a tear as I wait patiently in line for my turn to come. The love that I have for you is greater than any love I have ever had before. Inside my heart is breaking, but on the outside I force a smile, because no one can understand how emotional it truly is to feel so incomplete. Part of me is missing still...that part is you. For all the many painful tests, ultra sounds, blood tests I’ve had to endure my hope and wishes have never changed, I'd do it over and over again a thousand times just to have you in my life, to be my forever and my proof that dreams really do come true.
Every day I dream of you, of holding you in my arms and loving you. You aren't even here yet, not conceived yet... and yet I still love you so much. Sometimes the pain is so hard to endure knowing I may never get to see your face, hear your giggle, or kiss your boo boos. Mommy and daddy love you so much and we wish you were here with us. I hope that one day I'll get to hold you. If and when that day comes you will know love like no other child has known. You will be treasured and loved beyond words. I'm so ready to meet you, to feel you grow inside my tummy. Maybe our day will be soon. I hope so. Mommy and daddy are starting to get impatient and we're ready for you.